Where I was
Let me give you a little background story on me. High school, 1st serious boyfriend, not the best choice for me. Actually my parents flat out said NO. He wasn't in school anymore (drop out, over 18 - who knows - his story changed all the time). I was head over heels, or so I thought, and being a teenager, saw him anyways. BIG mistake! My parents gave in much to their dismay, and of course, they were right. I should've stayed away. He was verbal and emotionally abusive towards me and that forever changed me as a person. It was the worst thing I'd ever experienced, but being young and "stupid", I didn't think much of it and just thought, "Oh, he doesn't mean to be that ugly. Sometimes people get upset. He loves me, so it's ok." I was more infatuated with him looking back and just dumb when it came to relationships. I had nothing to compare it to, so what did I honestly know. Looking back I wish I could've slapped my former self. I was told I was ugly, wasn't worth anything, no one else would ever date me- blah blah blah. Sound familiar to anyone? I honestly hope not, but I know it's sadly true that many of you might have encountered this in your life. My parents finally said enough was enough because they saw the physical ramifications this was taking on me - I wasn't eating, not sleeping, losing weight, changing myself to please him. They had me going to therapy which didn't set well with my boyfriend because he saw they were keeping me from him and making him look like the bad guy. Long story short, I finally left him but even to this day, my confidence is shattered. I always doubt myself, my worth, my intelligence, and what I'm capable of. I fight those inner voices that put me down on a daily basis
Where I am
Now, rewind a few months from today, 6 months to be exact. I'm scrolling through Facebook and run across a sponsored ad for a girl doing her hair. Loved her curls, reached out to her and asked some questions about hair care. She gladly answered, referred me to her page, and I started following her makeup videos as well. I fell in love with the makeup and starting putting some techniques and practices in place. I liked it, I felt good about myself, and felt pretty. My confidence was starting to bud. One day, the opportunity was offered to me to join the company. Here comes the self-doubt - "Why me? No one is gonna listen to me. I'm not pretty enough to be doing live videos. I'll be a failure on her team and bring her down too." I didn't want to let her down, or myself either for that matter. But you know what - I said, "SCREW IT!" I was tired of limiting myself because of my past. I AM worthy of this and I'm going to try. I've never joined another company before. I've always wanted to have my own business but wasn't sure what I wanted. Nothing quite fit "me". Not selling 31, Perfectly Posh, Pampered Chef, Avon... not that I'm knocking any of those companies, but they weren't "for me". Before I joined, I fell in love with the makeup products first, and then wanted to tell all my friends about how amazing they were. Confidence shift again - I was telling people about something I loved, I was going LIVE (yes, me) and showing my naked face on social media for all to see and doing my makeup! Talk about a complete 180 shift!!!!! Even my family noticed the change, couldn't believe I was the same girl, and they even have asked me questions about what a difference they see in me. This company is the difference, I am the difference. I decided to reclaim my life and because I was tired of hiding and wanting to be invisible to the outside world due to my insecurities. I felt like I was letting him still "win", if you will, in letting myself think I'm not good enough, pretty enough, just enough for anything. My husband is my biggest cheerleader and motivator - I'll be the first to admit that. He builds me up and helps make me the best version of myself, but this is something I had to fix on my own. He has supported my 100% in any endeavor I've taken on and I'm so thankful for God bringing him into our lives. I've never felt so good about a decision, so passionate, so motivated.
And let me talk about my team for a moment. The team that joined around the same time as me, is FABULOUS! We have team chats every Tues and Thurs nights - like live video calls. We are uplifting, motivating, and are always cheering each other on. I don't know about you, but I don't do negativity and drama. That's high school and I haven't been there in a long time. I didn't want cattiness, jealousy, none of that nonsense. Our team is not competitive- it's genuine love, respect, and care for one another. I've met some of the most amazing women that I never would have come in contact with if it hadn't been for this company. We can message one another, call on the phone, meet up when we are closely, FaceTime...all the things. In August we are meeting up to go to convention together and sharing a condo, I have plans to meet up with the girls this summer to hang out. Never would have happened without me saying, "Yes! Let's do this!"
Where I'm going
Ever goal I have set for myself, I have hit and surpassed. I became a white status presenter, then yellow, and just last month I hit pink status -> all within 3 months time. I know that statuses don't mean anything if you're unfamiliar with how the company works, but making pink status was something I wanted and I knew I would have to work hard. Remember, this isn't my full time job. I pushed, and I did training, and I made it. I was SO proud of myself I was in tears! My family celebrated with me, my sponsor was the next person I called and we cheered and celebrated, and my team congratulated me. It was the best feeling in the world, and every day I thank the Lord for bringing this into my life. My only wish is that I had done it sooner, but that's ok. His timing is better than mine.
Where do I go from here? There are no limits for me. I want to continue to build my team and give this opportunity to anyone who is looking for something new. I want a team of women who are hard workers, positive influencers who will work with me either in person at my house, meet up for coffee and have team meetings, or meet via FaceTime or video chats. I want women who are ready to change their lives and watch doors open for them. I'd love to do this full time, allow my husband to only work one job, and enjoy life. Let's live our BEST lives together!
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